Has it really been 2 years

I just looked at my blog and I see that it has been two years since I last published. We will have to fix that people. If anyone is still out there.... if so let me know and I will post again. If not I will shut it down..

Waiting is the Hardest Part

OK I know that it has been 3 months since I have written anything. However, this is going to be the venue where I post baby pictures and daily updates too. We are in the overdue waiting game. Which is just feeding into the feelings of this isn't really happening. I used to go sit in the nursery all excited and anxious. Now I don't even hardly look in there. It is just another reminder of my occupied uterus. Not that the kicking, rolling and discomfort make me forget.

The other thing is that I think that my body is getting ready but just slowly. I lost the plug, I have been having mild contractions since Friday, I am dilated to 3 and 50% effaced. Just kick into gear already. You can do this on your own!!!

If this happens tomorrow, I will have escaped the shallow November ugly birthstone. Now the baby won't have it's own day. If I wait until Wed AM to have it Josh won't have much time home with us after birth. We thought that we were doing this Friday so he was off accordingly. He HAS to work on Monday because his boss is going to the Packer Game. But that doesn't give us very much time home together afterwards.....

I am just miserable here and bitchy!

Human Punching Bag

Early in my pregnancy I waited and waited to feel the baby move. Not sure what it was going to feel like. Each little gas bubble was "Oh was that a kick? Was that movement?" Now it has become so deliberate and I can pretty much feel the baby moving every day. Especially after meals. Everything I read says this is a magical time and you will feel like you are bonding with your baby. I haven't quite felt that yet. I cannot get over what an odd sensation it is. Just to be lying on the couch and feel your stomach moving. Granted I have gotten used to it and this is MUCH better than throwing up. It is just weird!

The exciting thing is that Josh can now feel it on a regular basis and that helps him to feel a connection to the baby. He felt the baby for the first time 3 or 4 weeks ago. It felt like little fluttery movements to him because the movements were small. One night last week we were laying on the couch together and Josh had his hand on my stomach and he got drilled with a kick or punch. The look on his face was priceless. He could believe that really strong movement was the baby. I had to confirm it for him. Now those movements happen regularly and he can just put his hand on my stomach and hang out with the baby too.

Radio Silence

This last month has been full of preparations which has whittled into my blogging time. Yes, I have spent a lot of time online however, it was looking and researching baby stuff. My dilemma started with the travel system. I knew that I wanted a matching car seat and stroller. That wasn't the hard part. The hard part was finding a unisex one that is reasonably priced AND soft and comfy. My mom and I spent an afternoon at Babies R' Us and Baby Depot. I had it narrowed down to what brand I wanted, it was just a matter of picking it out. We met a nice couple between the 2 stores and they really narrowed it down to 1 for us. I am not sure if that is what they chose, but it is what I did!

Then came the crib bedding. What a nightmare. It is virtually impossible to find a TRULY unisex crib set. Especially without characters like Winnie the Pooh. I am NOT a Pooh fan at all! The shows are fine but, I think Pooh is WAY over done. I scoured the internet. I think I have looked every set of crib bedding currently made! I finally decided on a mix and match set from Target. When my sister was in town she, my mom and I went to pick up. There are 2 different sheets that you can get. Well they are closing out the sheets that I liked. So I have scoured the Targets of Madison and had to find them on ebay. The matching window treaments are also unavailable so I had to buy an extra sheet so that we could make a window treatment.

Lastly, the crib! There are TOO many crib choices out there! First you have to decide finish. Then if you want covertable or not. If you want to be coordinated you have to make sure it has a matching dresser or changer if you want it. Me I knew that I wanted a changer/dresser combo. I think that I will want to have changer but, I am not committed to that idea enough to purchase a separate piece of furniture. Eventually, I found a set that I liked in a color that I liked that was seemingly sturdy, There weren't any reviews for it online. It didn't scratch too easily and was a reasonable price. Which is all that I was asking for, which was apparently too much! Oh and by the way if you are a person who is contemplating having children in the future it takes 12-16 weeks to get a crib. So try not to wait until your 26th week to decide on something. You may be waiting until dangerously close to your due date for it to come in!

So that is what I have been doing for a month... I think all of the BIG decisions have been made. Now it should be smoother sailing and easier decisions.... Let's hope. Now we need to move onto daycare! I am not even sure what this parenting gig will hold and I am sure I will have a much different attitude about who cares for my child after s/he is born. How do I know what to ask now??!?!?!

All the stuff

So we are officially over halfway there. I am starting to really get excited. I want to start registering and get all that fun stuff done. I have spent many evenings over the past few weeks cruising the internet and finding things that I like a lot. Then I check with Josh to see what he thinks. We have looked around Target and Babies R' Us. It is all so overwhelming!!! Plus it is very difficult for me to find something that I like.

We do have some favorites at the moment. I have a car seat and stroller combo picked out. HOwever, I am not sold on it. I have a back up that is colored similarly in case the one I like disappears from the market while I remain undecided. We have gone around and around on bedding. I have a crib and changer/dresser combo picked out that I like. Luckily they come in many finishes as I am not sure what I want it to be right now.

As I write this I have been surfing more things and becoming more undecided. I am off to bed with visions of car seats and breast pumps dancing in my head....