Only The Lonely

Well, Josh has made is pilgrimage to Mecca. I only wish he wasn't going to be gone this long. When I dropped him off at the airport today I said good-bye for 12 LONG days. Aside from a summer in college I have never lived alone. Even during that time Josh and I were dating so it wasn't like I was living alone so we spent almost every night together. Since Josh and I made the commitment to our relationship about 4 years ago this will be the longest I have been without seeing him. During the time that I was between school and work I spent almost every weekend with him. Since we lived together the longest we have been apart is the week that Mom, Danny and I went to Florida.

Josh and I have gone through a rough week preparing for him to go. We have been at each other's throats all week. If it wasn't me getting mad at him for letting the laundry "die" in the dryer, he was mad at me for telling him he couldn't buy parts for his paintball gun. So maybe his trip was timed perfectly, but it is still going to be hard. I am glad that I have my little Jackson to come home to. He has been snuggling with me all day. I am sure that he wonders what is going on. I left today with Josh and came home along. He looked really confused when I returned home alone.

So, off I go to sleep in my Queen size bed all alone. I will enjoy the extra space but, I will miss the safety and comfort I feel with Josh beside me.

So Begins the Change

This morning 2 spring things happened to me. First, the grass in our little yard has started to come up green. It won't be too long before I will be smelling fresh cut grass. Which thank GOD, I don't have to cut. One of the few joys of apt living. The Second, a flock of Robin's decided to land outside my window this morning. This was my first Robin this spring. It is nice to have them back. I am thankful that they are bringing the sunshine with them!!!!!

I also washed the last of winter from my car this morning. I know that it is going to rain this afternoon. My car is by no means spotless. I will have to wash it a few more times to get the rest of the dirt off of the car. Hey, it's a start!!!!!!

Spring has Sprung

Finally!!!!! The temperatures are in the 60's. It was a wonderful feeling to walk out of work yesterday and not be cold. I drove home with my windows down and music loud. Something about spring makes you want to do that! It is a close tie between spring and fall as to which is my favorite season. It is nice to have the world come back to life!! I love watching flowers bloom and grass grow. I love those days when you see the trees starting to bud. Then wondering "WOW! When did all the leaves get on the trees?". I always feel energized in the spring! I love being outside! I want to spend more time in the fresh air.

Welcome Spring! We missed you!!!

I Didn't Want to Do This.....

but now I feel I have no choice. Terri Schiavo. Poor, poor Terri. Growing up as a God Fearing Catholic I was taught that euthanasia was wrong. It took me a long time to understand what it meant. I didn't know what little Asian kids were doing wrong. Honestly! As all kids do when they are young, I soaked that up. You know I never believed it though. I always felt, and still do, that if I were in a persistent vegetative state, let me go. Keep me for a day or two until you can come to terms with what you have to do, then let me go! That is no life! No life at all!!!

I want to know what these parents think that they are saving? What kind of life is Terri living in a hospital bed? She is severely brain-damaged!! She isn't able to comprehend what is going on in day to day life. I think that her parents are just being selfish!! That is all!! If they cared at all they would have let her go years ago!! They wouldn't have prolonged her life. They say that she responds to them. Maybe she is trying to tell them enough already!!!!!

Let's hear your thoughts.

Situation Normal All Fouled Up

Well people we are screwed!!! I think almost everyone in America is screwed. What am I talking about? The NCAA tournament a.k.a. upset city. Who would have ever picked#13 Vermont to beat Syracuse. #14 Bucknell over #3 Kansas, WTF? What about #7 West Virginia beating Wake Forest? And the biggest upset of all NC State over the defending champs UConn. Well as far as the contest between Josh and I, we will see the standings tomorrow. At least the Badgers won today. Since my bracket was already screwed in that area I am happy to see them go on. I guess this proves it is all really a guessing game.