Relationships

I have been sitting on this post for a while now. This has been something weighing on my mind quiet heavily. Because relationships/friendships are vital to life. You need to have a good support system. This post is about the relationships and friendships that I have had throughout life. It does not completely include my views on bonds between family members because blood runs thicker than water. You HAVE to maintain your familial relationships no matter what!!

All through my life I have been a passive participant in relationships. By this I mean that I have been the listener, the supporter and the caring person. In relationships I go with the flow. I don't like to make decisions because I do not want to make a decision that will upset the other person. I go to great lengths to make the other person happy even when I am miserable. I put on the happy face even when I am crying inside. I probably don't hide the misery very well but I do. It seems as though all my relationships have been with people with more dominant personalities than me. I never minded it.

Then I had to become a dominant personality. Josh is the same go with the flow don't upset anyone type of person. As you may guess this does not work in a marriage and getting through day to day life. Someone has to make decisions and someone has to be aggressive. The problem is Josh is often so much of a laid back personality that he forgets about himself. He forgets about his needs and wants thinking that they don't matter. I look at that and think that is not healthy. I encourage to tell me of his needs and wants because if he doesn't no one will. My relationship with Josh has changed that for me. We had to learn that we will bump heads and we will fight but in the end that only makes our relationship stronger. We know that we love each other we just have to figure out how to incorporate each other's needs into our own.

In examining my relationship with Josh, I have determined that I am going to renew my views on my relationships. In the past many relationships have strained and faded away due to fights and stupidity. Because of our differences we would just butt heads and it is over. Life is too short. You have to realize that fights will happen but you have to talk it over, forgive, forget and move on. So that is my plan. Everyone has a clean slate. Everyone has a second chance, or third as it may be.

Wal-Mart Discount

Ahhhh I love my Wal-Mart discount. It makes me feel privileged. Low prices HA! I get them even LOWER!!! Because my husband is now a Wal-Clone who gives up his real life for Wal-Mart, I can get things cheaper!! I know it is only 10% but it is better than nothing. Last night I went to buy the Wahl Hot Air Styler Plus. It just makes my day to have the register ring up $19.77, slide my card through and have it read $17.80. That $2 adds up people. I wish that Wal-Mart owned everything in the world and we could get it cheaper......

Examples: Wal-Burger, Wal-Hair, Wal-Gas, Wal-Cars, Wal-Phone, Wal-Electric.....When does it stop? WHEN DOES IT STOP??????

It feels like Wednesday

Why oh why am I wishing my life away? The calendar says it's Tuesday but it feels like Wednesday!!!

Josh seems to having a good time on his pilgrimage. He is staying with a guy from Reno and a guy from Alabama. He toured "The Home Office" yesterday and had lunch at the cafe there. He has homework that he has to work on each night. This week he is learning about operation of a Photo/Connect Center and next week he learns technical/maintenance of the machines. Then the day before he leaves he gets his Wal-Implant (That is what my co-worker says) so that he becomes the Wal-Clone perfect employee.

I was informed that my future brother-in-law got a job in Clintonville. I am happy that he got the job, because that is what he wanted. I just don't want him taking my sister away. She will be 2-3 hours away from all of her family. I guess that I always hoped that we would all live within an hour of each other and our parents and be able to get together on the weekends. I guess that I was just fooling myself. I always wanted my children to be near their grandma and grandpa, and I wanted them to hang out with their cousins. I had my cousin Chelsea that I played with almost every weekend. I loved that!! I wanted the same for them.

I am not sure where our lives will head. Where Wal-Mart will take us next. I guess I have to get used to the idea of being away from my family........ Damn It!!!

What Is The Name of This Game?

I WIN!!!!!!!!! I beat Josh!!! MY bracket beat his. Not only did I beat Josh I win 3rd place in my work bracket!!!!! That is a 10x return on my $3.00 investment!!!!!!!

Congratulations to North Carolina!!!!! Congrats to ME!!!!!!!!!!!

I am tired Good night!!!

Damn Tired

I hate daylight savings time. The springing forward is always the worst. Instead of getting up at 5:30am as usual it felt like 4:30am. It is hard enough to get up at 5:30 as it is. Now it is that much harder. I know I will adjust, but not soon enough.

What really didn't help was the fact that I scared shitless to fall asleep last night. Jackson didn't want to go to sleep. He knew that someone was missing. So he kept barking at the door. I would tell him to get into bed. He would sit on the bed until I started to relax, then he would get up again and whine at the door. This my trusty guard dog. The one who barks at a piece of dust falling to the floor. I was uneasy, I don't like being alone. I was even more of a wreck because our bedroom door doesn't lock.

WHAT IF SOMEONE BREAKS IN????

I tossed and turned over that thought for a while. I don't want to sleep with Josh's 22 pistol under the bed. I would probably end up shooting myself in the foot in an emergency situation. I then got up and grabbed the phone. I then wondered if I should get the other handset too. You know the robber could get on the phone and screw up my dialing and I would never get 911. Then I realized that the keytones were turned on. So I spent 5 minutes figuring out how to turn them off. I then wondered what I would do since the bedroom door didn't lock. I figured that I would run into our bathroom and lock the door. I am still undecided if I will be taking Jackson into the bathroom with me or leave him to the robbers. Then Randy came home and I fell asleep because I figured that if he heard a lot of noise he would call 911 for me.

I hope that I sleep better tonight!!!