Tuesday, November 06, 2007

The Soprano's

You may not know that I am a Soprano's fan. I just watched the last episode. I don't know that I get it. I do know that I didn't hate it. I think that it was easier for me to watch it after it was released on DVD because I was able to learn things about the episode that I would not have remembered because the last time I watched many of the episodes was 2 years ago while I was high on Percoset. Talk about crazy dreams when you are mixing the Soprano's and painkillers.

I think that David Chase left it up to you the viewer to decide how you thought that it ended. Maybe Tony was shot by any one of the sketchy characters. Maybe it was all a dream. Maybe he was shot between the episodes and this was his purgatory. The place where he had come clean with all of his demons before he passed on. All I know is that it made me want to start the series over.

Josh never got into the series when I was watching it. Mostly because he came home and I was on a different season than I was when he left. I literally went through 4 or 5 seasons in less than a week. I wasn't very sure about them to begin with because I am not a mob movie fan. However, when I watched them I got sucked it. I hope that if/when I do watch them again Josh will be able to enjoy them with me because I really think that he would like it.

Friday, November 02, 2007

There is some justice in this world

Kansas church liable in Marine funeral protest - Yahoo! News

I really feel that this was the right ruling here. Josh and I have been e-mailing back and forth on this morning. It is people like this that give Christianity a bad rap. They feel that one judgment isn't enough they must act on behalf of God. Why make people's life miserable why they are alive? To make themselves feel better? To cover their discomfort? It is so frustrating, yes this is an extreme case. However there are plenty of people that you encounter in your everyday life that it is their duty to judge and punish people for being different.

I just want to get up and say "Can't we all just get along?"

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Hip New Doctor

Or.... New Hip Doctor.





So as you all know I have my hip problems. At last year's appointment my doctor pretty much told me to go on with life until I needed a hip replacement. It wasn't very helpful. I was so disappointed. He also told me to get my right knee checked out as he was pretty sure that was what was causing my continued hip pain. Well, after my knee is all said and done the hip has still been bothering me.





I have recently resigned to the fact that I will always limp and I will always be handicapped. That was a big step for me. It is hard for someone to admit that they will never lead a "normal" life. For me it was watching my sister's wedding video. It was so hard to watch. After that I just lost it!!! I sobbed uncontrollably for probably 20 minutes. Poor Josh didn't quite know what to do. However, at that point I accepted that I have to live with the body that I have got and there really isn't anything that we can do about it.





So this summer the left side of my lower half has started to bother me. So after talking to my wonderful therapist Marc we decided that it would be a good call to have Dr. Graf check out my knee and to visit the doctor that my hip surgeon referred me to keep an eye on the hips. As all doctor's in the UW system it takes about 2 months to get in when you are a new patient. So my wait was finally up last week.





I went to my appointment with Dr Illgen not quite knowing what to expect. In all honesty I was expecting the same brush off that I got from my surgeon. I was just going to be happy with someone looking at my left side and telling me not to worry or see you in a year. I was surprisingly mistaken. I LOVE DR ILLGEN!!!! If I weren't happily married I would marry him! The whole demeanor of my appointment was relaxed and studious. There was no abrupt decisions or shock factor. The Dr spent most of the time studying every x-ray that I have had taken over the past 2 years and watching the evolution of my hip joint. He didn't neglect my feelings. He was straight but gentle with me about my hip. He told me that within the next several years that I would need a hip replacement. My right hip has degraded so much even in the last year. He wants to watch my hip very carefully and make smart moves. Because I am so young I have a lot of time ahead of me (so I hope) so the plan has to be laid carefully. We talked about how to include a family in this and different steps depending on how things go. I walked out of that appointment feeling better than I have in a long time.





The first time I walked out of Dr. Mann's office I cried! This time I cried too but, for joy! For finding someone that I loved so much that can help me along this crazy path that I have been on. Someone to validate what I was feeling. I never knew that I needed that validation until last Friday. Until Dr Illgen told me that "If he had to live with a hip like mine he would cry everyday." What kind of Dr tells you that? A compassionate one. One who wants to help. One that you can truly believe in.