8 Weeks

Today is the official start of my 8th week. I love getting the e-mails each Thursday that tells me what Lil' J is up to for the week:

Your baby is now 5/8 of an inch long, about the size of a kidney bean. New this week: Webbed fingers and toes are poking out from your baby's hands and feet, his eyelids practically cover his eyes, breathing tubes extend from his throat to the branches of his developing lungs, and his "tail" is just about gone. His arms have lengthened, too, and his hands are now flexed at the wrist and meet over his heart. His knee joints have formed, and his feet may be long enough to meet in front of his body. In his brain, nerve cells are branching out to connect with one another, forming primitive neural pathways.

If you click the links you can see the development and the above paragraph along with some other information.

Scared Stiff

I went to lunch with my boss and her new little baby boy Dylan. Who is absolutely adorable. When I came back from lunch I noticed that I was "spotting" It wasn't anything normal like I experienced previously. So I called the Dr's office to be sure. I hate to be one of those people. But it was pinky, red and that concerned me.

My Dr's nurse called back ~20 min later and asked me if my boobs still hurt (yes), if I still felt nauseous (yes), if I had any cramping with the blood (no) and if we had intercourse lately (no). She then told me to call back if the bleeding got worse or cramping ensued.

Within an hour the bleeding had stopped and I was much relieved. I am just so scared that his miracle we have waited so long for will be taken away! Not today people! Not today.

Toilet Training

Threw up tonight for just the second time. Finding that evenings are much worse than daytime. Something in the tummy is better but doesn't stop the wretching.. I can't stand puking! Plus Josh needs to get the Drop-In out of the toilet. The bleachy smell only makes the head in bowl effects worse.

IT REALLY HAPPENED!!!!!

2 weeks ago today I woke Josh up screaming when my stick turned to this:


The bottom is the one tested in the AM of March 27th and the top was tested in the PM on March 27th. I also peed in a cup at the Dr's office on March 28th and that was positive too.
Based on my LMP we should be expecting our Lil'J (our nickname since we won't find out the sex) around November 26th. We are SUPER excited and cannot believe that this is finally happening for us!

I am planning on recording everything that is going on here so that you all can keep up with how things are progressing! So please stop back to keep in touch!!

Public Service Announcement

Dear Circus Readers,

Never under any circumstances is it alright to ask a woman in "child bearing years" if they are going to have children. Variances of this that are also intolerable include but are not limited to:

"So are you planning on having a baby soon?"
"Oh you have been married x years it is time to start a family."
"Do you have children?" followed by "No, are you going to?"
"Your clock is ticking. You only have x good years yet."

This also includes variations of these statements to parents of adult child bearing aged children who are within earshot:

"Oh it is so sad that you only have 4 legged grandchildren"
"Oh you have 3 grown children and no grandchildren how sad?"

I am SICK of it! People, especially acquaintances, feel that making small talk includes prying into your sex life. Personally it is none of their God-damned business. I don't walk around asking you if you and your husband are having sex regularly. You would be offended if I did.

First of all not everyone wants to have children. Why should they justify this to people that they barely know? It is a personal decision to have kids. Secondly, how do you know that you aren't talking to someone who has been trying to conceive for a long time and it hasn't? How do you know if you are talking to someone who is infertile? Do you realize that you may send people into a downward spiral that may take them days to get over? Do you really want to be responsible for causing that person so much pain? Third, it is just a royal pain in the ass. Why should I justify to you, a person that I just met, my personal decision of when and how to start a family? I don't ask you why you drink, smoke, snort crack etc... This is along the same lines of asking a single person why they aren't married.

People are so damned insensitive!!!! Think before you speak people!!!!