Friday, August 19, 2005

There Are No Words

These are pictures from last night of Stoughton. I have nothing to say as I am in awe of nature. So please see for yourself








Thursday, August 18, 2005

Redneck Journal Entry 156, Tree Trimmin'

Ok Folks here we are. This past Sunday we went to my parents for the day. As usual we had a great time. Josh loves being at the farm. He grew up a city boy and never got to experience the country. He lived in a little unincorporated town once. He considered that the country. He has never experienced what it is like to spend day after day in the fresh air, the smell of hay and cow manure. So any time he spends there is cherished. It was great when we lived closer because we could frequently visit. But now, the times are fewer as we live about an hour away.

Josh, Jackson and I headed out with the arsenal in tow. Josh always brings his paintball gun and .22 pistol along for the ride. So during the day my mother says that they have a tree near the creek (pronounced crick) that has a gypsy moth nest in it. They cannot reach it to cut it down as the branch is over the water. So Josh suggests that they shoot it down with the shot gun. He and Danny successfully trim the tree and place the branch in the burner barrel. Fun Over.

Well, shortly after they went to remove the branch, I look up at my parents black walnut tree and there is a branch hanging down. This tree is old and creaks in the wind. Many times during storms all the vehicles are parked away from the tree as it is known to drop a few branches. So I ask my mom how long has that branch been like that? She doesn't remember seeing it like that before. So she is concerned about it falling on her new grill and her flower pots.

Jerry and Andy get home and he is filled in on the day's tree trimmin' adventure. Other stunts including Danny's friend Seth car hanging off the sunroof of Danny's car while Danny is driving. Mom points out the branch. We eat dinner and Josh and I get ready to leave. We sit outside for a few minutes. Mom expresses her concern over the branch. It comes up that they are going to have to shoot the branch down. So Jerry order's Danny to go inside and get his deer hunting rifle and some rounds.

We all stand behind Jerry as he aims for the branch. He shoots a couple times nothing really happens. All the while he has this shit eatin'' grin on his face. I wish I wouldn't have gotten a picture of it. He looked like a little kid who just got a toy. We are all laughing at how redneck we are and he keeps shooting. The angle isn't going to work so he goes to the other side of the house. He hits the branch once. He aims again and ends up shooting the branch above it so now there are two branches hanging down. He decides to give Danny and Josh an shot at it. They now both have rifles. One shot fires and and the branch sways. Two shots later the bottom branch is on the ground. Another shot and the top branch falls. Success!! The tree is now trimmed and Ma's new grill is saved. All is well on the farm again! I new no one would believe this without documentation. So here is the proof:
The Branch left behind
The Kill
The Great Green Hunters

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Patiently waiting

I am patiently waiting for pictures from Danny. They are pictures of the weekend that you will help the story. The story is funny without them, but hilarious with them!!!

Other than that nothing really new. I am counting the days until the Dr visit!!! 16 and counting........... It will not come soon enough!

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Rain Rain Come and Stay

I was happy to see the rain fall on my drive to work this morning. Our grass has bounced back and isn't all hard and prickly to walk on. That is a nice change considering what our lawn looked like a month ago. Also, it is a relief to not have to water my flowers today. At the end of the season I bought 2-six packs of pansies (I think that is what they are) and put them in the shade in front of the garage. The pot on the right got morning and VERY early afternoon sun. They looked beautiful, healthy green, they flowered. The pot on the left looked worse to begin with. The flowers got morning AND afternoon sun. Not all afternoon, but definitely more than the others. They have really started to spread out and flower now. So I am happy. I brought them back from the edge of death. Which gives me a sense of accomplishment. I didn't kill them off. I think this time last summer my flowers had already dried up and died. I just didn't have the patience to water them every day.

So my hip has been pretty much in pain constantly. I have just learned to take the drugs and shut up about it. Although Monday was a pretty black day for me. I was in so much pain and the Aleve wouldn't take it away. As much as I wanted it too. The week has gotten better.

Josh and I have decided to try an e-diet. A lady at work is on one and really likes it. I don't know if she has lost much weight because she is always eating out. But we are trying it. She is printing me off menus to let us see if we like it. If so we will go from there. That way the only $$ we are out is the food money. Let's see if I can get Josh to eat things like hummus and tuna, not together. I am not going to talk about it until I am ready so please don't ask!! This is something that was VERY hard for me to come to terms with. I am just happy that Josh is being supportive and helping me through this. It is not that I don't think that I won't get support from you, it is just that I am not sure about this. I am not sure if I can do it and I don't want to let anyone down besides myself. I hope that makes sense. Maybe after trying it for a few weeks we can talk! Until then shhhhh..........

Well I should probably get to work!! I have a busy day ahead of me!!!!

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Oh Good to See you Again

I feel like I am always apologizing for not writing. It has been a very tough week. I have been in a LOT of pain. I have been living on painkillers. I have only taken one Vicodin and that was Tuesday night and I was snowed the first half of Wednesday. I pretty much walked around in a daze until I ate at 11:30. I cannot do that to myself unless it is really worth it. And I had swept, mopped and vacuumed that night so I was in really rough shape. When Josh got home I made him hold me and I cried into his shoulder. A good cry being held by the one that you love can make everything all better. At least that it would seem that way.

There is only so much pain that someone can suffer without losing it. I have been on the edge all week. All I have to say is poor Josh. I am cranky more than I am happy. Sometimes I think that I should just go straight to bed when I go home. But then I know that Josh would starve or gain 20 pounds from going out to eat all the time because I wasn't cooking.

On a different note. I went and saw baby Olivia this weekend. She is adorable. When I get my camera back from my mom I will post pictures of her on here (with her mother's permission of course). She is adorable!!! She had beautiful big blue eyes!! She is darling. I always feel uncomfortable when I hold a baby for the first time. It takes me a little while to figure out what they like, what soothes them, how to get them to stop crying. All of that stuff. So at the beginning of the day I want to give the baby back. But by the end I am ready to bounce and sway and play. Still not ready for my own because I was glad to hand her back when I left. I know that motherhood is beautiful and rewarding. I am just to ready for my life to change that much.

Finally, we took Ben to the airport on Sunday so he could fly back to Ft. Drumm. It was sad to see him go. We found out on Sunday that he is leaving for Iraq sometime next week. I haven't agreed with this war since the beginning. I never understood why "W" thought that this was necessary. I just think that he wanted to finish what his daddy had started. Which is the absolute worst excuse ever. Reports have shown there weren't any WMD's, our excuse to be there. I see absolutely no justification for the US to be there. NONE! How can George Bush sleep at night knowing he has killed so many innocent people. Not only Iraqis, but US soldiers and civilians. I guess it hits closer to home when a family member goes. Josh's family whole-heartedly supports this. How can they? Josh argues that they are "pro-soldier" not pro-war. I guess that I don't see it that way. Something that the father of one of the soldiers killed said really rings true.

"Two weeks ago, Augie had called home from Iraq after spending 26 days in the field. They had not heard from him for five weeks, and their son's voice seemed to reflect a change in his convictions about the war.

"When he first arrived in Iraq in March, he was full of optimism about what his good intentions could accomplish," Paul said.

But Augie's enthusiasm eroded over time, and his father said he will never forget what his son told him.

"The closer we are to departure, the less 'worth it' this has become," Augie said.
In a way, Paul was heartened by his son's words.

"When you first get there, you think everything's hunky-dory," he said. "But after four operations, the insurgents were still there. He didn't think they were having any effect. I heard him and thought, 'Well, the bloom is off the rose.' I was opposed to this war before it even started, and my son is a sharp kid."

He caught himself.

"Was," he said, as he started to sob. "My son was a sharp kid. ""