Connected

We are now connected to the real world. We hooked up our DSL on Wednesday. We went almost a month without the internet at home. You know without the Internet what good is a computer right?? We went a whole month without the Internet at home. It sucked!!!!! When it came down to it we cancelled the Internet access in Spring Green before the new year so that we didn't have to pay for the month of January. We knew that we wouldn't be using the internet that much and anything that really needed to be done I could do at work. That way we had one less bill to pay in January. I know that the $17.88 isn't a lot in the grand scheme of things but it was also one less hassle. This way we don't have to worry about calling them and waiting for a refund because we would have only used half the month we paid for...blah, blah, blah.

All that I have to say is that it is good to be back. It is also wonderful have the same connection speeds at home and work. This was the cause of some frustration as I didn't like using the internet at home because I could do it much faster at work.

Sadness

Today is officially the saddest day of the year. This has been proven by a scientist in the UK. He used a mathematical formula to figure this out. This is the link. I think that I agree. For those of you who may not know a horrific tragedy hit my former small town of Spring Green. 4 young men died in a terrible car accident(read about it above). Three of these boys look vaguely familiar to me. Then there was the fourth, Justin. I had met Justin at our favorite Spring Green establishment, The Shed. Josh and I ate at the Shed several times a month. That is where we returned to after my bachelorette shower and had our rehearsal dinner. We often looked forward to spending most Friday evenings there.

At The Shed there is are many wonderful bartenders. My, favorite is Carla. Carla is a woman in her mid to late 3o's. She has had a rough life. She has been through many relationships. She is a single mother raising her four kids mostly on her own. She was the one smiling face I looked forward to seeing. She is a sweetheart who will listen to your problems. She always has a smart ass remark for everything and if you sit there long enough she will buy you a free drink! This summer I met two of her sons. She did not look old enough to have two boys this age. Her sons Justin and Steven both worked as bus boys. Justin was cocky and always had a smile on his face. Steven was the quieter of the two. I don't know how Carla survived raising these children but she was doing it. It is obvious to see that she loves her children VERY much!!! If you haven't figured it out by now. Her son Justin was killed in this accident. My heart breaks for Carla. The thought of her loss chills me to the bone. I think what is really hitting home after this tragedy is how fragile life is.

Last night I tossed and turned all night. I couldn't sleep and the sleep that I got was troubled and full of disturbing dreams. When I told Josh of my troubled slumber he didn't understand. I think that he didn't see that I wasn't as upset for Carla that I was upset for how fragile life really is. At one point I thought to myself that I am not ready to die. I am not ready for anyone I love to die. Are we ever? Of course not!! And we cannot live our lives in fear of death, but we have to be aware of it. We have to live our lives for today because we could die tomorrow.

So take that thought with you. Tell your spouse that you love them. Hug your children tightly. Take the time to do the little things. Life is too precious.