One year ago today I had my hip surgery. I cannot believe that it has been a year. It seems like just yesterday I was lying in that hospital bed. I cannot remember the pain and suffering that I went through at the beginning, nor do I want to. Those days were very trying! Sometimes I am amazed at how strong I must be to make it through all of that and still be here to tell the story. I know look back on this year and ask if it was all worth it? I used to say "yes" until my knee started hurting. Now I just wonder if I am ever going to be "normal" again. I still limp and cannot walk long distances. I know that I am not in as much pain as I once was, but pain is relative. I guess I will have to see what my doctor says next week.
The thing that really surprises me is where we are now compared to last year and even 2 years ago. We are buying a house!! Something that I thought would never happen. With Wal-Mart we were stuck in a vicious cycle of relocating. Thanks to Wal-Mart, Josh was able to get a job where he was appreciated AND we had quite a boost to our savings account. The good thing is that we made it through and haven't looked back, through the surgery, the job loss and other problems!! We have learned to forge ahead!
Hopefully all the strength that we have gained in the last year will help with our latest challenge! We have been dealing with something VERY tough and personal! I may talk about it someday but out of respect for the situation I will not post it here now. The pain is still to raw and I don't know what to say and how to handle myself. How do you keep your strength when the one person who has always been your rock needs you to be theirs? When I figure that one out I will let you know.
