Busy, Busy week!! The closing on our house went wonderfully! I cannot believe how EASY it all was. I kept waiting for something to pop up and screw it all up. I wasn't even overwhelmed by the amount of paperwork. We have been VERY busy over there. Right after the closing we went to Menards to buy supplies for the house. Paint was on sale so we bought a bunch. I hope that we got enough, but we weren't sure how much we were going to need so we guesstimated the best we could. We have spent pretty much all of our time there removing wallpaper borders and cleaning all of the glue off the wall.
We have so many ideas of things that we want to do our heads are swimming. We have categorized them as immediate, before the housewarming and someday. It is really hard for me because we are changing the color scheme so dramatically. I just want to change everything. I think with the colors that we have picked bronze or wrought iron will be our choice of fixtures throughout the house. Those are things that we are going to want to change slowly, but I am pretty excited to do it and want it done NOW! Josh is good at grounding me and reminding me of the money end, which coincidentally I am always reminding him of.
Needless to say, we are VERY excited about owning our first home! We cannot wait to get in, but at the same time realize that there is SO much that we want to do before we get there. The walls are filthy. I know that we are painting but I wonder how people live like that. I am sure it just happened, especially since they were not living there. EVERYTHING needs to be scrubbed! The showers are so filthy and they are just taunting me every time I go into the bathrooms! The cupboards need cleaned. I want to take down all of the lights (not that there are many) and run them through the dishwasher. Everyday we see something new. Yesterday while removing glue we took down the window treatment in the master and the blinds (vertical) are so filthy so we have to vacuum them. The list is never ending!
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
T minus 43 hours and counting
We close on our house Friday at 10am. I am SO excited that I have been driving my co-workers a little crazy with my constant jabbering and ranting. I don't really get nervous until I think about it and then I want to puke! There is just so much that I want to do that I cannot even fathom it. I keep thinking of new things like putting in a programmable thermostat and buying a new chandelier for the dining area. We cashed in our change bottle and we should have enough in there to buy at least 4 gallons of paint, depending on price.
On top of the excitement of the house closing we are going to a Packer game on Sunday! I am really hoping that my knee doesn't interfere with my walking too much! I would be severely pissed if it did as I am really looking forward to the Packer game! This may be the last time we have a chance to see Brett Favre at Lambeau Field. Who knows if he is going to stick around another year or not!
On top of the excitement of the house closing we are going to a Packer game on Sunday! I am really hoping that my knee doesn't interfere with my walking too much! I would be severely pissed if it did as I am really looking forward to the Packer game! This may be the last time we have a chance to see Brett Favre at Lambeau Field. Who knows if he is going to stick around another year or not!
Monday, December 04, 2006
Untitled
It has taken me a long time to decide on whether to write this post or not. I finally decided that I had to write this. My sanity has come to depend on it. I need to get this out and on a screen as maybe it will help me deal. This is what a blog is supposed to do. It would have been too hard a month ago but, I am ready. This is mostly what has kept me away from here and posting so infrequently. I would be writing but there is a huge elephant in the corner staring at me. This is the majority of what is going on in my life right now. Mom, I hope that you are OK with this!
My mom has Breast Cancer. We found out the second to last weekend in October. A family meeting was called and no one knew why. We have all coped with this in different ways and none of us very well I am afraid. I think that I am still stuck in the first stage of grief which is denial currently served with a side of depression (I can cry at the drop of a hat). I had truly thought that I was on my way to acceptance until my mom shaved her hair off because it started to fall out. I lost it! Not only did I lose it in front of my mother that day, but that evening with Josh.
I lost it because for the first time my mother looked ill. She didn't look like the same person that I saw the day before. I didn't recognize the woman that had been there for me my whole life and that scared me. Scared that this disease would actually win. Scared that she wouldn't be there for me much longer. Scared that she was suffering. Not wanting her to become another one of those Cancer patients so sick and bald headed. Hoping that she was fighting the disease with every ounce of energy she has in her.
My mom's Cancer is very treatable and it isn't very aggressive so it hasn't spread far. However this forces you to think about your parents mortality. When you are growing up your parents are superhuman and you don't want to think anything less. You never want lose your parents. As the circle of life keeps turning you realize that is closer than you want it to be, especially when disease enters the picture. At this point you just want to hold onto every moment that you have with them. You want the world to stop spinning and the days to stop. You don't ever want to leave them.
That is all I need to get off of my chest right now. I will have to post these from time to time to help me through this. Maybe I can skip anger and bargaining and go straight to acceptance. I think that I am close. The only anger I will have is at my brothers not helping out enough around the house!!
My mom has Breast Cancer. We found out the second to last weekend in October. A family meeting was called and no one knew why. We have all coped with this in different ways and none of us very well I am afraid. I think that I am still stuck in the first stage of grief which is denial currently served with a side of depression (I can cry at the drop of a hat). I had truly thought that I was on my way to acceptance until my mom shaved her hair off because it started to fall out. I lost it! Not only did I lose it in front of my mother that day, but that evening with Josh.
I lost it because for the first time my mother looked ill. She didn't look like the same person that I saw the day before. I didn't recognize the woman that had been there for me my whole life and that scared me. Scared that this disease would actually win. Scared that she wouldn't be there for me much longer. Scared that she was suffering. Not wanting her to become another one of those Cancer patients so sick and bald headed. Hoping that she was fighting the disease with every ounce of energy she has in her.
My mom's Cancer is very treatable and it isn't very aggressive so it hasn't spread far. However this forces you to think about your parents mortality. When you are growing up your parents are superhuman and you don't want to think anything less. You never want lose your parents. As the circle of life keeps turning you realize that is closer than you want it to be, especially when disease enters the picture. At this point you just want to hold onto every moment that you have with them. You want the world to stop spinning and the days to stop. You don't ever want to leave them.
That is all I need to get off of my chest right now. I will have to post these from time to time to help me through this. Maybe I can skip anger and bargaining and go straight to acceptance. I think that I am close. The only anger I will have is at my brothers not helping out enough around the house!!
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Play that Funky Music
I know that I have been quiet lately but there has been a lot going on. I know that is no excuse, but I haven't really been in the mood to write. Yes, there is a certain mood that you should be in so that you aren't babbling like a brook. Everything is going smoothly with the house purchase. We close in 3 weeks and 2 days so we are VERY excited about that. We went and bought a fridge last weekend. We have paint picked out and are organizing a painting brigade. I am very excited to get in there and clean and get the ugliness off of the walls. I just hope the next three weeks go very quickly!!!!
As far as everything else in life it is OK. Work is going to be insane next year due to our recent acquisition. I am not looking forward to seeing my in-laws this weekend. I had to make a jello salad. I'll be damned if I knew how to make one. I had to search online for it. I hope that it tastes good! If not oh, well they will never ask me to bring that again. I have just been in a funk lately with everything going on in life. I am glad that I have a new house to move into and enjoy!! Hopefully by the time that is over things are getting better!!!
As far as everything else in life it is OK. Work is going to be insane next year due to our recent acquisition. I am not looking forward to seeing my in-laws this weekend. I had to make a jello salad. I'll be damned if I knew how to make one. I had to search online for it. I hope that it tastes good! If not oh, well they will never ask me to bring that again. I have just been in a funk lately with everything going on in life. I am glad that I have a new house to move into and enjoy!! Hopefully by the time that is over things are getting better!!!
Monday, November 20, 2006
My Hubby the Killer
Here are pictures of Josh and his deer. It isn't a big one, but it is better than nothing. He shot twice, injuring one that he wasn't able to find and this one. Other than that Mitch's brother shot once and missed.
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