This is New.....

So this week has had some interesting changes.

1. The exhaustion is back and in full force! Except however, when it comes time to sleep, I toss and turn. Which leads to getting up too late in the AM, late nights at work and more exhaustion.
2. Eating, I am SO hungry all the time. I am constantly snacking throughout the day. I literally cannot got 1 hour without shoving some sort of calories in my face. If it gets past an hour I get really hungry and nauseous and borderline gagging on air.
3. I hate the taste of water! I have to force down water. I have tried drinking kool-aid and caffeine free sodas, milk and juice but you still need 64-oz of fluids a day and I cannot drink that much of the above things. So, I choke down water.
   
4. Finally actual puking in the AM. Up until Sunday, I had vomited once in the AM. Starting Sunday it is happening pretty much every morning. I have found that a drink of water (maybe why I am hating the taste of it) goes a long way to throwing up something besides straight stomach acid. Monday I tried eating some graham crackers but those just came up too. Graham crackers 2 days in a row, well Sunday was Golden Grahams, equals no more eating them. My new routine is get up, drink some water, shower, get hair in towel, dry feet and legs, bend over toilet. At least I am getting used to it.
   
5. Gas, so this isn't new, but why don't they tell you that you will have gas so bad you put your husband to shame. A couple of weeks ago I woke both myself and Josh up by farting. Josh said he woke while saying "What the Fuck?" in his sleep. I just had to laugh, there was nothing else I can do. You want to know how bad it is? After dinner Saturday and cake Saturday and my family left. I was sitting in the kitchen with my brother in-law. I said man I have to fart. He told me to go ahead. I wowed even him, not by smell but by volume, sound and vibrating effects. He is a man who can clear a room instantly. That There really should be a disclaimer somewhere, VERY early in the pregnancy books to warn you and your spouse of this. It is NOT normal to have that much gas, NOT normal.
   

OK I am off to try and sleep. Let's see how that goes!

9 weeks

Your new resident is nearly an inch long — about the size of a grape — and weighs just a fraction of an ounce. She's starting to look more and more human. Her essential body parts are accounted for, though they'll go through plenty of fine-tuning in the coming months. Other changes abound: Your baby's heart finishes dividing into four chambers, and the valves start to form — as do her tiny teeth. The embryonic "tail" is completely gone. Your baby's organs, muscles, and nerves are kicking into gear. The external sex organs are there but won't be distinguishable as male or female for another few weeks.

First Prenatal Appointment

Today was my first prenatal visit with Dr Buss. My pre-appointment trip home did not go so well. Josh was cooking lunch when I got home. Scrambled eggs with peppers, onions, cheese and salsa. The smell hit me like a brick wall. I ran to the bathroom and lost my lunch. This was the worse episode yet. I had an egg salad sandwich for lunch (which I had been craving) and I had to relive it all. It was really not pleasant. I had been doing ok but I am tossing my cookies more frequently. Luckily not at work. I am not looking forward to that but, I feel like it will happen soon.

The appointment was very long, 2 hours from start to finish. The nurse went through all of our medical history. Then Dr Buss came in. He reviewed all of the information. Talked about nutrition, what is normal, when to call with problems, what medications are safe and a bunch of other stuff. He told me he wants me to eat healthy and only gain 10 lbs maximum. He is concerned that I will have a tough time with my joints if I gain too much. Plus if I eat healthy, I should be eating less crap and decreasing the fat content that I eat. Not that I eat all that much anymore.

It came time for the physical exam. Before I stripped I asked Dr Buss if we would be able to hear a heartbeat yet. I really wanted to hear it. He thought that it was too early yet. However, after I was in my sexy gown his nurse came in with the Doppler and they tried. They couldn't hear anything due to it being too soon. It was still nice of him to attempt it.

Then came the pelvic exam, for those of you women, this can be uncomfortable enough. I was just worried that Josh would be weirded out by another guy all up in my business. That isn't what was awkward, it was when Dr Buss asked him if he wanted to see my cervix. So Josh felt obliged to look. He got a guided tour of what to expect when looking inside the va-jay-jay. Then saw the pinhole that our baby will eventually come out. I shouldn't be worried about ruining any mystique around that area because, all will be lost when a baby comes screaming out of there.

Dr Buss said everything felt normal. He thought that the size of my uterus was inline with how far along I was which is validating. I go back May 22nd. I will be 13 weeks along. At the end of the first trimester and hopefully less nauseous. Plus we will definitely be able to hear a heartbeat!!!

8 Weeks

Today is the official start of my 8th week. I love getting the e-mails each Thursday that tells me what Lil' J is up to for the week:

Your baby is now 5/8 of an inch long, about the size of a kidney bean. New this week: Webbed fingers and toes are poking out from your baby's hands and feet, his eyelids practically cover his eyes, breathing tubes extend from his throat to the branches of his developing lungs, and his "tail" is just about gone. His arms have lengthened, too, and his hands are now flexed at the wrist and meet over his heart. His knee joints have formed, and his feet may be long enough to meet in front of his body. In his brain, nerve cells are branching out to connect with one another, forming primitive neural pathways.

If you click the links you can see the development and the above paragraph along with some other information.

Scared Stiff

I went to lunch with my boss and her new little baby boy Dylan. Who is absolutely adorable. When I came back from lunch I noticed that I was "spotting" It wasn't anything normal like I experienced previously. So I called the Dr's office to be sure. I hate to be one of those people. But it was pinky, red and that concerned me.

My Dr's nurse called back ~20 min later and asked me if my boobs still hurt (yes), if I still felt nauseous (yes), if I had any cramping with the blood (no) and if we had intercourse lately (no). She then told me to call back if the bleeding got worse or cramping ensued.

Within an hour the bleeding had stopped and I was much relieved. I am just so scared that his miracle we have waited so long for will be taken away! Not today people! Not today.