Friday, February 17, 2006

Frustration

Today I had my 3rd therapy appointment with my new therapist, who I will only have for one more appointment. She is leaving the beginning of March, she is an intern and that is when her internship ends. Then I will have to switch to the guy who helped to evaluate me. He seems very kind and easy spoken. I don't need someone who is harsh.

My frustration has nothing to do with my therapist, I have found at the therapists I have had wonderful and supportive. I don't think that I could have asked for anyone better. The problem is my body. Since I have developed as I have and walk the way I have for so long I am getting frustrated at it. I have problems with my toes pointing out all the time. Now my hips aren't aligned straight. I have REALLY had to work on my stomach muscles!!! Talk about HARD! I think that I am going to have a 6 pack by the time I am done with this.

I am beginning to be frustrated at my lack of progress. I have progressed pretty regularly. My therapists have always been pleased with my progress. I was able to show them weekly how much better I have become. Now I don't make enough progress in a week, I have to go every other week. I know that I should see it as look how far I have come. It just means that we are getting to the fine tuning. Which is great! As many of you know the fine tuning is often the hardest part because you have to tinker and prod and poke and try and figure out what to do to make it all run as it originally did. You tinkerers know the frustration I feel it is only worse because it isn't an engine or car, it is your body, you use it for everything. If it doesn't run right you know.

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