I am going to be a WIFE!!!!!

Go ahead laugh at me. I am used to it. In a conversation with Josh this weekend, I came upon a harsh realization. I am going to be someone's WIFE!!!! As Josh so sweetly pointed out not anyone's wife his wife. In unison awwwwwwwww!!!! When it comes to this wedding I know that I can handle the mishaps and the problems that come up along the way. I don't even feel overwhelmed anymore when I think of all of the stuff that we have to do because we steadily cross things off the list. What really throws me into an asthma attack is the fact that I am getting married. I am going to be joined to someone until death does us part...... I know if it doesn't work out we can always get a divorce but who goes into their married life with that comforting thought. I know that nothing in our relationship will change only my last name. But a wife, a wife cooks and cleans and wears cute little aprons. She always has fresh cookies in the cookie jar. She can make a Martini extra dry with a twist. I don't even know what a dry martini is. I still sometimes leave dishes on the coffee table or in the sink hoping the dish fairy will come. Then I realized oh I am the dish fairy now along with laundry elf, toilet gnome and dust bunny hunter. Being a wife means that I have grown up and that is scary!!!!!

I don’t' feel grown up. How is a grown up supposed to feel? I never felt a magical change. Where was that??? Who waved the magic wand and said ok she is a grown up?? Where ever that wand is I want to break it in two. I don't wanna grow up...................